not the average stress.

never been glad to be able to escape from work for some time. 4 days. thats how long of break i have after my night. if possible, i would never want to recall any of it. but what to do, i need to make my statement when those people ask me. pfttt. traumatizing.

if you have no god damn clue what i am babbling about, just wait. i know you will understand how grave this is.

i was the in charge for the male side on all 4 nights. it is good that there is the continuity of care and we are able to know patients better. it all happens on my third night which is yesterday. while being preoccupied with 2 admissions, a freaking loud thud came from along the corridor.
i hate to type it out but whatever. MY PATIENT FELL lying right lateral. urghhhhhhh!!!

and to have a patient fall, it is a big NO. no matter who's fault it is, it will always be the incharge who has to take the blame. well... someone has to anyway.

we brought him back to bed and i questioned him why was he near the fire hose reel. all he could say was "Tong minyak, tong minyak". which means oil barrel. and the best part was, all the cot sides was up and my collegue saw him fast asleep 5 minutes before the incident. just my luck.

this freaking fall leads to RMS (Risk Management System) where i have to explain with details regarding the incident which will lead to the sisters of the ward then the Senior Nurse Manager (SNM) who is the overall sister in charge of the ward and finally the Department of Nursing Admin (DNA). where every single time, they are going to parrot some timeworn axiom. gosh. there goes my clean record... its nicely marred.

kind of depressed for the last two days. it does not help to know that he sustained - Neck of Femur fracture KIV ORIF (Open Reduction Internal Fixation).
for all i know, i am going to be a dead meat on Tuesday.

for now, i need the beach and lots of prayers.