Saturday, December 27, 2008

silly mistake.

i came to work in the morning yesterday when i am supposed to be working in the afternoon. was close to taking cab when i realise i am still early. gosh... yes, i am early. if only the hospital has rooms for nurses. it'll be great cause i don't have to make my way all the way home just to continue my sleep.

anyhoos, i met Naz at the NEL link. it slipped my mind that its her birthday. thank god i hugged her. maybe i was made to come to work just to wish her. go the extra mile. hahaha.

pfttt. should have stayed a while longer at the birthday place.

the early morning face.

and tomorrow, is my niece's one month birthday celebration.

i pen my thoughts @2:45 PM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

the verdict.

i dread going to work just now. but running away is not an option. being already sick, my as well get it over an done with. besides, most prolly i will not be able to concentrate if they decide to nag at me. 95% sick + 4% lost + 1% self.

it seems that my case has already faded with time. that is what i choose to believe for now. i suppose i am forgiven but not forgotten. maybe it will surface tomorrow. maybe....

i did not even get to see how he is doing after the ORIF as he was transferred. hopefully everything goes fine for him.

alhamdulillah...

i pen my thoughts @1:19 AM

Sunday, December 21, 2008

the effects.

it is that bad that i am now having sleepless nights, flu and aggravated by the stupid toothache with migrane. i need to get a grip before i fall into pieces.

i am just thinking too much.

i pen my thoughts @11:32 AM

Friday, December 19, 2008

not the average stress.

never been glad to be able to escape from work for some time. 4 days. thats how long of break i have after my night. if possible, i would never want to recall any of it. but what to do, i need to make my statement when those people ask me. pfttt. traumatizing.

if you have no god damn clue what i am babbling about, just wait. i know you will understand how grave this is.

i was the in charge for the male side on all 4 nights. it is good that there is the continuity of care and we are able to know patients better. it all happens on my third night which is yesterday. while being preoccupied with 2 admissions, a freaking loud thud came from along the corridor.
i hate to type it out but whatever. MY PATIENT FELL lying right lateral. urghhhhhhh!!!

and to have a patient fall, it is a big NO. no matter who's fault it is, it will always be the incharge who has to take the blame. well... someone has to anyway.

we brought him back to bed and i questioned him why was he near the fire hose reel. all he could say was "Tong minyak, tong minyak". which means oil barrel. and the best part was, all the cot sides was up and my collegue saw him fast asleep 5 minutes before the incident. just my luck.

this freaking fall leads to RMS (Risk Management System) where i have to explain with details regarding the incident which will lead to the sisters of the ward then the Senior Nurse Manager (SNM) who is the overall sister in charge of the ward and finally the Department of Nursing Admin (DNA). where every single time, they are going to parrot some timeworn axiom. gosh. there goes my clean record... its nicely marred.

kind of depressed for the last two days. it does not help to know that he sustained - Neck of Femur fracture KIV ORIF (Open Reduction Internal Fixation).
for all i know, i am going to be a dead meat on Tuesday.

for now, i need the beach and lots of prayers.

i pen my thoughts @1:30 PM

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

mere coincidence.

i should be in bed. cause i am "supossed" to be tired after working night. but here i am, glued to the computer. perhaps for various reasons.

i am suffering from toothache and its killing my brain.
my mum goes marketing and i am waiting for her return so that i can have my apple juice.
i have got insomnia.
there's so many discharges on my side; which means empty beds thus more overflow cases coming in today.

first night was tiring as usual. there is this need to know the patient better, need to adjust to the time, adjust to the pace and plus stupid report writing which i really find a chore. so much for legal document. anything can happen.

anyway, i met Farahliyana, a primary school friend, right before roll call started. not a very nice timing cause it all seems a rush. glad that our paths crossed again cause the last time i saw her was during primary school. but i was not aware that her mum knew my mum. or did she mistook me for someone else's daughter. and at that point, i went blank. i know its written all over my face. hah. the conversation was left hanging on my part. shame on me.

by the time i log off, it'll be noon. and i've got 3 hours of sleep, pray, and continue at least 1 hour plus. hopefully its enough to last me tonight.

on a lighter note, i am going to get BONUS on the eighteenth. hurrah eventhough its pro-rated. and i am done with Breaking Dawn. :)

i pen my thoughts @11:00 AM

Saturday, December 13, 2008

a trip to Lion City Hotel.

and thats my Malaysian cousin, Nurrahidah.
better known as Norkonor konor.
:)

i pen my thoughts @12:08 AM

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

twister mania.

played Twister with my family. hilarious!!! and absolutely a great workout.

too bad i have to wait for my cousin to upload the pics.

and... it reminds me of NYP and camps and...

oh wells.

slacking during lab lessons. THE best.

i pen my thoughts @6:25 PM

indulgence.

i am done with Eclipse some time back and now, on Breaking Dawn. though not as exciting as the first two, i am least tempted to flip to the last page to know the ending. the movie will be out in time when i am done with the Twilight saga.

yoghurt ice-cream is alot more tasty at this little shop at Singapore Post which is just opposite macs. you guys should give it a try. especially the macadamia flavour, my FAVOURITE. nice environment. simply delicious ice-cream. all thanks to izza.

anyway, my second sister is now in Hong Kong. holiday-ing.

its been hard trying to contact her. cause she won't be bothered to pay her bills. i know i am just as bad. but hey, at least i pay my bills. and at least i will reply even if it takes me weeks or months to realise. hah.

kak ida- if you are reading this, get ONLINE!!!!

i pen my thoughts @6:25 PM

the little one.